關於 couldn't help but cry ，我們在網路上蒐集到這些相關的討論、資訊與評價

"7289????" Daniel was shocked to see the drastic increase in the number of covid cases. He received the msg in one of his whatsapp groups.

"I don't know what the hell are these people doing until there are so many cases...🙄" he replied in the group.

Shortly after that,

"Ma, I'm going to my friends house for a while... I told him to give me all the pictures of the "secret gathering" we had yesterday, in a thumb drive.. Cannot upload on FB, they will catch, so I'm going to take it secretly.. 😁", he said while laughing.

Mother : "Ok boy, come back fast ok... I cooked your favourite mutton curry..
Too many Covid cases around... Dad and myself have not gone out for a long time because of this... Pls don't bring back any virus ok..."

Daniel laughed... "OK maa.. The way u are saying is as if I'm going to pack the virus and bring it back...🤣"

So Daniel went to James's house.

Lunch was ready, so James's mother invited him inside for lunch. James's mother know the covid cases are increasing, but she felt this boy doesn't have Covid because she knows this boy for such a long time. Daniel also know the Covid cases are increasing, but he felt this family won't have covid because they are like family to him too. Daniel loved all of them so much, especially the aunty. She always cooked for him.

So he went inside, took his mask off, asked them for a plastic to keep his mask so he can use it later when he is going back home, hugged everyone, everyone hugged him back, had his lunch together with the whole family, and had a great time catching up....

Then he went back home.

The next day, Daniel got a call from his Boss that one of his colleagues has been tested positive, so all of them have to do the swab. He hit his forehead and said "OK Boss, I will go and do."

Before doing the swab, he went to the supermarket. There he met another old friend, Ben after a long time. While talking, they both removed their masks because they are meeting after a long time.
Ben just got a baby after 10 years of waiting. Sincerely delighted with the news, Daniel gave Ben a big, tight hug before leaving.
"We will all come and visit the baby soon brother" he said...

Then he went for the Covid swab and went back home.

The next day, he received a call from the doctor that his swab results is positive.

He shouted back at the doctor "Cannot be laa doc!!! I don't have any symptoms... I wore mask everywhere I went what!!!"

Now - the most important part....

The Doctor tells him "Mr Daniel, now u have to give us a list of people that you had close contact with for the past few days, without leaving anyone out. They all need to do the swab."

So Daniel wrote the list down.
This time, he didn't laugh anymore.
His hand was trembling while writing, because they were all his loved ones.

In the list, were his parents & siblings who stayed with him, his friends that he met during the secret gathering, his girlfriend that he drove all around with, James, James's family, Ben...

"God, pls let this end with me... I hope I didn't pass it to anyone...How if anything happens to anyone of them because of me? God, none of them must be positive, please... " he prayed silently, wiping his tears.

So all their results came back the following day. His parents were positive, 4 of his friends that he met in the secret gathering was positive, James was positive, James's mother was positive, Ben was positive, Ben's precious baby was positive.

________________________

After 4 days, Daniel's mother was admitted to ICU.

During her last video call before intubation, she told him,

"Boy... Remember that I love you a lot... Take care of Dad... Dont feel bad that you brought the virus home... Either way also I am old already, that's why I can't cope... Remember its not your fault ok..."

She didn't make it in the end, and they couldn't even do the funeral.

While this was going on, he received a msg that James's mother needs to be admitted to ICU but all the ICUs are full at the moment, so she is still waiting in the normal ward, praying hard and hoping to get an ICU bed soon. According to James, the frontliners are going out of their way to help her with whatever they have, while waiting for the bed.

Daniel could only cry out loudly, but he can't undo what he has done. Now he finally understands how the number has increased.

Moral of the story :
With the increasing number of cases, every person you meet may either be a close contact, a contact's contact, or a POSITIVE COVID.
But you know what is the good news? You can avoid Daniel's situation if you stay at home.

#StaySafe

This msg is brought to you by :
Dr. T. M. Shamani
(Based on a few true stories)

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"7289????" Daniel was shocked to see the drastic increase in the number of covid cases. He received the msg in one of his whatsapp groups.

"I don't know what the hell are these people doing until there are so many cases...🙄" he replied in the group.

Shortly after that,

"Ma, I'm going to my friends house for a while... I told him to give me all the pictures of the "secret gathering" we had yesterday, in a thumb drive.. Cannot upload on FB, they will catch, so I'm going to take it secretly.. 😁", he said while laughing.

Mother : "Ok boy, come back fast ok... I cooked your favourite mutton curry..
Too many Covid cases around... Dad and myself have not gone out for a long time because of this... Pls don't bring back any virus ok..."

Daniel laughed... "OK maa.. The way u are saying is as if I'm going to pack the virus and bring it back...🤣"

So Daniel went to James's house.

Lunch was ready, so James's mother invited him inside for lunch. James's mother know the covid cases are increasing, but she felt this boy doesn't have Covid because she knows this boy for such a long time. Daniel also know the Covid cases are increasing, but he felt this family won't have covid because they are like family to him too. Daniel loved all of them so much, especially the aunty. She always cooked for him.

So he went inside, took his mask off, asked them for a plastic to keep his mask so he can use it later when he is going back home, hugged everyone, everyone hugged him back, had his lunch together with the whole family, and had a great time catching up....

Then he went back home.

The next day, Daniel got a call from his Boss that one of his colleagues has been tested positive, so all of them have to do the swab. He hit his forehead and said "OK Boss, I will go and do."

Before doing the swab, he went to the supermarket. There he met another old friend, Ben after a long time. While talking, they both removed their masks because they are meeting after a long time.
Ben just got a baby after 10 years of waiting. Sincerely delighted with the news, Daniel gave Ben a big, tight hug before leaving.
"We will all come and visit the baby soon brother" he said...

Then he went for the Covid swab and went back home.

The next day, he received a call from the doctor that his swab results is positive.

He shouted back at the doctor "Cannot be laa doc!!! I don't have any symptoms... I wore mask everywhere I went what!!!"

Now - the most important part....

The Doctor tells him "Mr Daniel, now u have to give us a list of people that you had close contact with for the past few days, without leaving anyone out. They all need to do the swab."

So Daniel wrote the list down.
This time, he didn't laugh anymore.
His hand was trembling while writing, because they were all his loved ones.

In the list, were his parents & siblings who stayed with him, his friends that he met during the secret gathering, his girlfriend that he drove all around with, James, James's family, Ben...

"God, pls let this end with me... I hope I didn't pass it to anyone...How if anything happens to anyone of them because of me? God, none of them must be positive, please... " he prayed silently, wiping his tears.

So all their results came back the following day. His parents were positive, 4 of his friends that he met in the secret gathering was positive, James was positive, James's mother was positive, Ben was positive, Ben's precious baby was positive.

________

After 4 days, Daniel's mother was admitted to ICU.

During her last video call before intubation, she told him,

"Boy... Remember that I love you a lot... Take care of Dad... Dont feel bad that you brought the virus home... Either way also I am old already, that's why I can't cope... Remember its not your fault ok..."

She didn't make it in the end, and they couldn't even do the funeral.

While this was going on, he received a msg that James's mother needs to be admitted to ICU but all the ICUs are full at the moment, so she is still waiting in the normal ward, praying hard and hoping to get an ICU bed soon. According to James, the frontliners are going out of their way to help her with whatever they have, while waiting for the bed.

Daniel could only cry out loudly, but he can't undo what he has done. Now he finally understands how the number has increased.

Moral of the story :
With the increasing number of cases, every person you meet may either be a close contact, a contact's contact, or a POSITIVE COVID.
But you know what is the good news? You can avoid Daniel's situation if you stay at home.

#StaySafe

This msg is brought to you by :
Dr. T. M. Shamani
(Based on a few true stories)

This is how the case increases…Trust no one

【天青色等煙雨，而我在等你】(English writing below)

我看著客人眼淚
滴滴答答的打在桌面上
筆記本
濕了
本子上的字
糊了

她的心酸
猶如洪泉遇到崩裂的堤壩
一波一浪的破牆而出

一個被愛情辜負的女子
看了真是心疼

我不由自覺的
想到了自己

你懂我的
像我這樣剛烈的女子
爲了愛情
我絕不退縮
祇是一個勇字
又豈能成事呢

童年
過得心驚膽顫
家裡常吵得
雞犬不寧

爸爸沒想要
把我生下
媽媽常說
要把我趕出去

我很努力讀書
我很努力做個乖孩子
我覺得我做得很好
人小小本事很大
但這些終究無法
讓我在美滿的家庭長大

多少個夜晚裡
我被媽媽打得
想奪門而出
永不再見
可是想到誰來照顧她
我又忍下來

我很恨
為何我命運不如人

第一次談戀愛時
我是多麼多麼的雀躍
內心裡的煙花
不斷地爆開
我終於等到了
不再是
沒人要的孩子了

我終於
值得有人愛了

初戀的絢麗
卻也如七彩美麗的煙花
一聲巨響後
就消失在漆黑的夜裡

他常常在我面前
提到他如何深愛著
他中學時的校花
她是如此的美好

有一次
這校花來我們的學校
他得知後
破課室的門而出
沒見到她
他哭了一整個星期

心中的不安
讓我常常與他吵架
三年零八個月裡
我不是一個好女友
服滿兵役後
他喜歡上大學迎新會
的一位混血兒

後來
我和一位校友打了幾次桌球
某夜
他在ICQ向我索吻
對他的印象
就一落千丈了
（你以為老娘在賤賣嗎？）
不久一位朋友告訴我
他約會的對象
不只我一個

我有一位
很好很好的朋友
我在新加坡時
他常陪我
深夜打桌球到清晨
聊佛法聊人生
一起上佛學班
一起學國標舞
從未有一個人
如此瞭解我的心
如此照顧著我

但無所不談的當兒
他也不斷告訴
這麼多年來
他如何愛念著
一個女孩
對她始終無法忘懷

我又輸給
活在記憶中的人了

我這一份單戀
長達兩年
很磨人很磨人很磨人
差一點走不出來

第二次談戀愛
他常在我面前提起
一個他追了半年追不到的女孩
他說
有一天一定要去問她
為什麼不選擇他

在家裡的毒打
並沒有隨著我成人
而停止

後來拜師學藝
卻因爲品德不良
被師父一句
「你不是我要找的人。」
斷然吃了閉門羹

那天我哭得痛徹心扉
覺得自己
好像是
個沒人要的孩子

方文山因爲
八百年前
宋徽宗皇帝御批的這句
「雨過天青雲破處」
而在周傑倫《青花瓷》裡
寫了『天青色等煙雨，而我在等你』

他說
愛情里最無力的無奈
就是「等待」
天青色得等待
不知何時會降的雨
雨停
積雲散去
朗朗晴空中
天青色才能顯現
如同我
只能被动而安静的
等待着
不知何时才会出现的妳。

慢慢的
我開始認為
我這輩子等不到了
月老應該沒幫我
綁上紅線

學佛多年後
忽然恍然大悟
一個道理
没有东西是必须拥有的
沒有它
也不代表自己的不足

愛情
是一個填不滿的慾望
所以愛情劇長紅

在2015年2月21日年初三，根本上師蓮生活佛在台灣中天綜合電視台的訪談中說：https://youtu.be/EPDxwSt6a5I （時間12:08）

「師尊本身的愛是這樣的。我既然愛她，就是要她幸福，不是要佔有她，這種愛不是佔有，其實愛不是佔有。如果愛是佔有的話，那就是屬於慾望。如果愛不是佔有，我是祝福她，雖然我愛她，她不愛我，她愛別人，我就祝福她。如果愛別人會比較幸福，我就祝福她。這種愛就不是佔有的愛。如果是佔有的愛，一定會產生痛苦。」

原來我真正在等的
是自己
自己的智慧開了
心變闊達時
才不會讓他人決定
自己幾時可以幸福
可以幸福多久
命運在我手中
怎麼走本來就是我說了算

我輕輕的拿起桌上的紙巾，遞給女客人。她一把鼻涕，一把眼淚的向我道謝。

借了師父慣用的笑話，我柔聲細語的說：「別哭，新加坡缺水，要哭要到蓄水池哭，這樣我們可以少看馬來西亞的臉色做人。」

她破涕而笑。

我再說：「我看了妳的八字，現在又看到妳真人，勸你跟我講話老實一點，要不然我幫不到妳。妳明明一直做人家的小三，還敢跟我哭沒有男人要和妳結婚？妳不也偷偷拿了他不少錢嗎？我看妳明明就是一張愛錢的臉。」

奉勸各位大俠，在我面前，若要用眼淚爲武器，請三思，因爲虛偽的，我必定拆你面具。

..........................

I looked at the teardrops of my client, pitter patter onto the table top. My client's notebook got wet. The words got muddled.

All the pains in her heart were like the angry river crushing through a broken dam, tearing down the walls as the tears flowed.

To see a lady being let down by love was indeed heart-breaking.

I couldn't help but thought of myself.

You know me. An unyielding character like mine will not shrink like a coward in the name of love. Alas, there are things in life that can't be accomplished solely with courage.

My childhood was filled with a lot of fear. There were often quarrels at home.

My dad didn't want me to be born. My mum often said she wanted to chase me out of the house.

I studied very hard. I did my utmost to be an obedient kid, and I thought I did very well as young child but I was already very capable. However, all these were not enough for me to grow up in a complete family.

So many nights, I got beaten up so badly by my mum that I wanted to just break out of the door and never to see her again. But the mere thought of nobody looking after her pulled me back.

I hated so much. Why wasn't my destiny comparable to other people?

When I first fell in love, I was so elated. The fireworks in my heart exploded non-stop. I finally found someone. I was no longer that child which nobody wanted. I was finally worthy of someone's love.

The splendour of first love, however, was as temporal as the rainbow-coloured fireworks. After a loud explosion, it vanished into the darkness of night.

He would often tell me in my face, how much he pined for and loved his secondary school crush, apparently the prettiest and most perfect girl in school.

Once, this campus belle came to our school. When he got wind of the news, he dashed out of the classroom. Failing to see her, he cried for one whole week.

My insecurity caused me to quarrel with him often. In those 3 years and 8 months, I wasn't a great girlfriend. After his NS, he got together with a girl of mixed blood at his university's Orientation camp.

I played pool with a uni mate a few times. One night over ICQ, he teased me for a kiss. My impression of him dropped like hot cakes. Did I look like I was lelong-ing myself? Later, a girl pal told me that he was dating several girls at the same time.

I had a very good friend. Whenever I was in Singapore, he would accompany me to play pool till wee hours. We talked about Dharma, life, and we attended Buddhism and ballroom dancing classes together. I had never met a person who understood me and took care of me so well.

But among our endless conversations of everything and anything, he always told me how he still loved a girl from his school. He couldn't forget her.

Again, I lost to someone who lived in the memory of the guy I liked.

This one-sided love of mine burned for two years. It was very, very, very excruciating. I almost didn't make it out alive.

In my second relationship, the boyfriend would always tell me about a pretty girl whom he pursued for half a year, but failed to win her heart. He told me firmly that if he had the chance, he wanted to ask her why she did not choose him.

The abusive beating at home did not stop even after I grew up.

Later on, when I wanted to become Shifu's disciple, he turned me down flat because he didn't think I had good morals and values. He was blunt, "You are not the person I am looking for."

That night, I cried painfully hard. Suddenly, I felt like I was the kid from my childhood whom nobody wanted.

800 years ago, Emperor Huizong of Song Dynasty wrote in an imperial decree "雨過天青雲破處". It was this that inspired Vincent Fang (方文山) to write the lyrics 『天青色等煙雨，而我在等你』in Jay Chou's song 青花瓷 (Blue and white porcelain).

Vincent Fang said, the most powerless kind of helplessness in love was waiting.

The sky green colour had to wait for the rain, which it had no idea when it would arrive. After the rain stopped, the thick clouds dissipated, in the clear skies, the sky green colour would then be able to appear. This was just like how he could only passively and quietly wait, for his lady whom he had no idea when she would appear.

Gradually, I started thinking that in this lifetime, I would not be able to wait for that person to appear. Perhaps Yue Lao (the elderly celestial under the moon) did not tie the red string on me.

After many years of learning the Dharma, one day, I suddenly came to the realisation that nothing is a must to own.

Secular love is a black hole of desires. That is why romantic shows are evergreen.

On 21 February 2015, the 3rd day of the Lunar New Year, my Root Guru Living Buddha Lian-Sheng spoke in an interview with the Taiwan CTI Television Inc.: https://youtu.be/EPDxwSt6a5I （timestamp 12:08）

"My personal take on love is this. Since I love her, I will want her to be blissful, and not to possess her. Such love isn't possession. Actually love isn't possession. If love is possession, that belongs to desire. If love isn't desire, I will wish her well. Although I love her, she doesn't love me, but loves another person, so I will give her my best wishes. If loving another person brings her more happiness, I will wish her well. Such love isn't possessive love. If it is possessive love, there will surely be pain."

Then I realised, the one that I had been waiting all along for is myself. Waiting for my wisdom to develop, waiting for my heart to be more open, so that I would not place my happiness in the hands of another person, and let the person decide for me when I should be happy, for how long I can stay happy...

My destiny is in my hands. How it pans out is up to me to say.

I gently picked up a serviette from the table and passed it to my lady client. In a mush of mucus and tears, she thanked me.

Borrowing an old joke from Shifu, I gently told her, "Don't cry. Singapore lacks water. If you want to cry, you should cry at a nearby reservoir. This way, we don't have to see the colours of Malaysia in order to get more water."

She broke into a smile among her tears.

I continued, "After looking at your Bazi, and now that I have seen you in person, I advise you to be more honest with me, or else I will not be able to help you. You have all along been a mistress to other men, and you dare to come crying to me that no man wanted to marry you? Didn't you also stole some money from them? The way I see you, you obviously have a money grubber face."

My advice to all swordsmen: If you wish to use your tears as a weapon in front of me, think thrice. Because if you are a hypocrite, I will definitely rip your mask apart.

這是我很喜歡的一首歌 － Stop This Train.
人生是一列火車，途中有好多不同的人上車、下車。有時，當我看見火車外面很美的風景時，真的好想大聲喊 “Stop this train!"......... 可惜，人生就是一列火車。請問，要怎樣才能讓它停下來呢？ 哪怕，只是一分鐘？

吉它 : 黃子達
Piano : Bell 宇田

Stop This Train

No, I'm not color blind
I know the world is black and white
Try to keep an open mind
but I just can't sleep on this tonight

Stop this train
I wanna get off and go home again
I can't take the speed it's moving in
I know I can't
But, honestly, won't someone stop this train?

Don't know how else to say it,
Don't want to see my parents go
One generation's length away
From fighting life out on my own

Stop this train
I wanna get off and go home again
I can't take the speed it's moving in
I know I can't
but, honestly, won't someone stop this train?

So scared of getting older
I'm only good at being young
So I play the numbers game to find a way to say that life has just begun
Had a talk with my old man
Said, "Help me understand."
He said, "Turn 68,
you'll renegotiate
Don't stop this train
Don't for a minute change the place you're in
Don't think I couldn't ever understand
I tried my hand
John/Bell, honestly, we'll never stop this train."

Once in a while when it's good
It'll feel like it should
And they're all still around
And you're still safe and sound
And you don't miss a thing
'Til you cry when you're driving away in the dark.

Singing, "Stop this train
I wanna get off and go home again
I can't take this speed it's moving in
I know I can't
'Cause now I see I'll never stop this train."


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The minutes didn't matter. The Denver Nuggets were just encouraged to see a uniform draping Nene's beefy body again, and that great smile splashed across his face once more.

The big Brazilian forward played the final 77 seconds of the Nuggets' 118-105 win over the Dallas Mavericks on Thursday night, marking his return to the court 2 1/2 months after surgery to remove a malignant testicular tumor.

"Everybody was excited to see Nene back out there, just to see him back in his uniform, seeing him smile again after the stuff he's been through," said Carmelo Anthony, who scored 32 points and keyed the decisive run in the Nuggets' fourth straight win.

Nene had been out since Jan. 11, and it's been just over a month since he underwent chemotherapy.

In the locker room afterward, Nene never stopped smiling. He said he's still full of nerves, still absent enough stamina but certainly not lacking any strength.

"I survived, I'm still here," he said. "I'm a new man, stronger than ever, I just say, 'Thank you, everybody.' "

Allen Iverson added 31 points for the Nuggets, who are a half-game behind Golden State for the eighth and final playoff spot, and one game behind the Mavericks. The Warriors visit the Pepsi Center on Saturday night for another big matchup.

The Warriors visit the Pepsi Center on Saturday night for another big matchup.

"That game's bigger than this game," suggested Anthony.

But this game will long be remembered, too.

When Nene stripped off his warmups and finally entered the game with 1:17 left, he was given a rousing standing ovation and teammate Kenyon Martin embraced him in a bear hug.

"George Karl said, 'Go ahead, enjoy your party,' " Nene said of Denver's coach. "It's a special moment in my life."

Nene had hoped to play about 5 minutes, but those aspirations were dashed when the Nuggets fell behind by 15 points early on.

Besides, it's not as though the Nuggets were looking for a major contribution or even an emotional lift.

"It's not about how he plays," Karl, a fellow cancer survivor, said before tip-off. "We're just happy he's back and we're going to celebrate his health, we're going to celebrate his coming off of major cancer surgery, and we're just going to celebrate. This has nothing to do with basketball. We're just happy he's with us."

Iverson said this was a night he'll remember forever.

"He's a teammate, and he's somebody we care about and we want around, but life is so much bigger than basketball," Iverson said. "When it happened to him, it put it more in perspective for me that it's not just about this game, it's about life. It was just a good feeling and I was happy to be a part of it."

Karl said he wanted to cry when Nene got into the game.

"It's worthy of tears," Karl said. "To see him come back, he's a hell of a person and to help him through this, if we can help him play this year, it will be a great story, it'll be a great feeling, it will be a great building block for the character and chemistry of our team."

Anthony also chipped in 10 boards and eight assists, helping Denver overcame a 30-point night by Josh Howard and 19 points and 15 assists from Jason Kidd.

The Mavericks are 10-9 since acquiring Kidd from New Jersey, but none of the wins was against teams with winning records. Six of their final 10 games are against teams above .500, including two against Golden State.

Dallas fell to 1-1 since losing MVP Dirk Nowitzki indefinitely with knee and ankle injuries.

But the Mavs controlled the tempo for much of the game. Kidd was left unguarded on the left elbow and swished a 3-pointer in the third quarter to give the Mavericks a 79-71 lead.

The Nuggets responded with an 18-2 run, with Anthony scoring half of the points. His breakaway slam dunk gave Denver its first lead since the opening minutes.

Anthony sank four free throws with 3:17 left in the third quarter for an 86-81 lead after Dallas coach Avery Johnson and Howard received technicals for arguing a personal foul on Howard.

"Geez, I'm the only guy in the league that gets a technical by saying one word," Johnson complained. "It wasn't even a bad word. I was asking for a clarification. They have to get some tougher skin."

The Nuggets built their lead to 94-86 after three quarters and weren't threatened again.

Howard surpassed his scoring average of 19.6 points with a 22-point first half, leading Dallas to a 70-60 lead at the break. But without Nowitzki, the Mavericks couldn't keep repelling Denver's runs.

"I don't know if there was a void. Guys stepped up," Kidd said. "We just couldn't keep them off the boards and didn't take care of the ball in that second half."

Game notes

Anthony (23 years, 303 days) scored his 9,000th career point. Only LeBron James reached that milestone at a younger age (22 years, 352 days). ... The Mavericks are 1-2 without Nowitzki this season and 16-12 (.571) without him for his career. They're 495-255 (.660) with him.

Max Jenmana - Stop this train (cover)
Rehab Session at Flow Space Thailand

Thanks
Director : Kritsaran Jongsuwan
Ass.Director : Vanon Kullawatpaisith
Sound Engineer : Jearasak Khvanvan

Original by John Mayer
Song: Stop this train

No, I'm not color blind
I know the world is black and white
Try to keep an open mind
but I just can't sleep on this tonight

Stop this train
I wanna get off and go home again
I can't take the speed it's moving in
I know I can't
But, honestly, won't someone stop this train?

Don't know how else to say it,
Don't want to see my parents go
One generation's length away
From fighting life out on my own

Stop this train
I wanna get off and go home again
I can't take the speed it's moving in
I know I can't
but, honestly, won't someone stop this train?

So scared of getting older
I'm only good at being young
So I play the numbers game to find a way to say that life has just begun
Had a talk with my old man
Said, "Help me understand."
He said, "Turn 68,
you'll renegotiate
Don't stop this train
Don't for a minute change the place you're in
Don't think I couldn't ever understand
I tried my hand
John, honestly, won't someone stop this train?"

Once in a while when it's good
It'll feel like it should
And they're all still around
And you're still safe and sound
And you don't miss a thing
'Til you cry when you're driving away in the dark.

Singing, "Stop this train
I wanna get off and go home again
I can't take this speed it's moving in
I know I can't
'Cause now I see I'll never stop this train."