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擁有「另一個我」是什麼感覺？
1996年2月24日，這對混血雙胞胎在吉隆坡出生了。姐姐Felicia Tavia與妹妹Fyrone Taylor的名字，都是以F字開頭，意思是家庭（Family）、朋友（Friends）、永恆（forever）。她們不能想像世界沒有了對方，因為姐姐是妹妹的太陽，而妹妹就是姐姐的開心果。
🤝 Relationship Issue的第二個分題──「姊妹」: 懷雙胞胎的機率大概是0.004%；常說姊妹情深，我們好奇雙胞胎的感情也許更加密不可分。於是分別訪問三對攣生姊妹──馬來西亞時裝模特兒Felicia和Fyrone；「JupYeah 執嘢」創辦人Ren和Kodi；台灣姊妹蕭臻和蕭璦，她們不只同步成長，還一起相依為命，一起租房子，一起工作，一起刺青，一起同床同夢。☁️
#hfRelationship #hfinAsia #hf專訪
#HOKKfabrica #原來不只一種模樣
#尋人啟事
#胡湘荷妳在哪裡
我的母親已八十歲，
疫情期間，
母親常在電話跟我聊一些過去的事情，
母親的記憶力非常好，
從她十歲開始到現在，
她幾乎能記得所有的事情。
當然，
她記的幾乎都是些令人心碎的事。
就像她的妹妹＿
我的小阿姨，
跟她失聯了四十三年的事，
一直讓母親忘不了。
小阿姨屬猴，
64歲、
1956年出生。
大約1977年離開緬甸，
去到泰國投靠大舅，
又輾轉在1978年左右去了加拿大。
之後，
就失去了聯絡。
自從有網路以來，
我就幫忙母親在各種尋人版上刊登過尋人啟事，
但都沒有下文。
可能是刊登的資訊不齊全。
四十三年前，
小阿姨從緬甸到泰國又到加拿大，
可能證件、姓名等都跟原本的不一樣了。
近期，
與我母親通話，
母親又提到失聯的小阿姨。
她叮嚀我們是否能幫忙她再找找看。
母親今年八十歲，
她很想知道她的小妹，
是否還活在這世界上？
附上母親說的話，
她讓我公佈在網路上。
希望有緣，
我的小阿姨能看到。
Midi 於永和
2020 April 12
#胡湘荷
#尋人
胡湘荷，妳在哪裡？
阿湘，
我是妳的二姐胡明珠。
我們分別有好長一段時間了。
妳離開緬甸時，
我二兒子才剛出生，
都還不滿一個月，
妳來看他時，
還說：
「他的臉白白的，
是不是我給他擦粉？」
現在，
我二兒子四十三歲，
我呢，
已經快滿八十二歲，
八十多歲，
是老人了。
人家說，
人愈老記性愈差，
我是相反，
我的記性反倒是愈老愈好。
但是，我能記住的，
都是些傷心的事情。
也許，
我們這代人，
也沒有什麼快樂的事情可以記住。
就像妳的離開，
我們從此失去聯絡，
想起妳，
就讓我難過。
妳還活著嗎？
我想妳會活得好好的。
妳有幾個小娃了？
過得怎麼樣呢？
四十三年前，
妳離開腊戌時，
妳還在腊戌漢人學校唸書。
有天放學，
我去攔住妳，
跟妳說：
「妳以後每天下課後就來我家吃飯，
別去大姐家吃了…」
妳說：「好」。
妳也就跟著我到我家吃飯了。
我還記得，
妳才剛坐下，
我不知怎麼搞的，
就說了那些話。
我說：
「大姐讓妳以後來我這裡吃飯，
別去她家吃了，
讓妳三姐去她家吃，
妳三姐不挑嘴，
妳比較挑嘴…」。
這些話，
是大姐跟我說的，
我當時太懵，
太老實，
我也不曉得，
為什麼要說這些大姐講的話？
為什麼要講給妳聽？
我完全，
沒有擔待不了妳的意思呀。
不管多窮，
姐妹間互相照顧都是應該的，
我轉述大姐說妳的那些話，
是沒有任何理由的，
就是我以為是姐妹之間的聊天，
講出來而已。
我那時候過得很困難，
養著六個小娃，
病死了兩個。
但是，
照顧自己的妹妹是天經地義的。
那天，
我邊說就邊到廚房去炒菜，
難得妳來這裡吃飯，
總要多一樣什麼菜才行。
我炒完菜端著出來，
妳就不見了。
當時，
房東許老嬤嬤還在場，
她說，
「我轉進廚房，
妳就站起來走了…」
我那時才發覺；
我講錯話了。
妳這麼敏感的人呀！
我一路追著妳，
追到大水塘路上＿
到妳跟妳三姐住的地方，
妳正在哭。
妳正在哭著跟妳三姐吵架，
妳跟妳三姐說：
「二哥寄來的錢分來…」
妳三姐不敢應妳，
在旁沉默著。
這筆妳要的錢，
確實是妳二哥寄來給妳們兩姐妹的生活費。
那時，
媽媽剛去世不久，
大哥人去了泰國；
在泰國北部滿堂安了家，
家裡所有的兄弟陸續去了泰國。
而爸爸因為沒身份證在貴概被移民局抓住，
送到仰光坐滿九年牢，
緬甸政府正打算著把他送到台灣去的時候…
那天，
我看著妳哭，
我就明白了妳的心情。
妳三姐在準備跟她愛人私奔，
在腊戌妳也只有大姐、我和妳三姐了。
我和大姐早結婚，
各自已有有家庭。
如今妳三姐又要嫁人，
大哥他們又遠在泰國，
母親去世，
父親坐牢。
妳接下來就要孤苦零丁的一個人生存了。
一個十八歲的女孩。
我知道妳的害怕和難過。
那天，
看著妳哭，
我很後悔把大姐說的話講出來。
妳應該了解我的。
我一直都盡力照顧我的家人，
當時從雲南背著妳逃難到緬甸邊境，
背了一天一夜。
我都是自願的。
妳記得嗎？
妳到腊戌讀書時，
很想要一條件仔褲，
那時許多人都買不起，
我還是費盡力氣買給妳。
妳知道我是心疼妳的。
妳離開腊戌的那天，
妳說妳要去泰國了。
臨走時，
我拿了300塊錢給妳，
妳知道嗎？
那時候我拿出300塊錢緬幣是到處借來的錢呀。
阿湘，
我知道妳一直都在受苦，
去到泰國，
大嫂可能待不得妳，
妳二哥、三哥他們當時也沒能力照顧妳，
妳在泰國又沒有合法的身份；
哪可能有其它去處。
最後妳選擇結婚，
我想也只是為了解脫這些難過的生活罷了。
之後，
就聽說妳嫁了人，
跟著丈夫家去了加拿大。
之後，
我就再也就打聽不到妳的下落了。
我們最後的連繫，
停留在泰國北部滿堂，
或是停留在泰緬邊境美賽，
我都有些記不得了。
那時，
聽說妳從大哥家跑出來了？
又聽說妳去暫住在一對老年夫妻的家裡？
這些，
都是後來傳到腊戌的消息了。
妳去加拿大前，
還寄來給我和大姐和妳三姐每個人一件衣裳布、
一條籠基。
三份禮物裡夾著三張白紙，
寫著：「大姐的、二姐的、三姐的…」。
我還記得，
那是託「義號佛堂」楊前人帶來的禮物。
那條籠基到現在我還留著＿
孔雀花紋的。
阿湘，
我這個作二姐的也羞愧妳了。
當時，
聽到這些關於妳的困難的消息，
只能每天想念著，
想到傷心，
我沒有任何能力。
那時，
我是，
連從緬甸腊戌到泰國邊境的車票都買不起呀。
當時我養著這麼多小娃，
吃一口飯都難。
阿湘，
現在講這些都只是回憶了，
都是我們老人家的回憶，
都不重要了。
那為什麼還要講這些呢？
就是，
為了，
想讓妳看到，
看到這些我說的話，
證實，
我是妳的二姐而已。
想讓妳知道，
我一直在找妳。
我活到八十歲，
夠了，
人活這麼老沒什麼意思，
都盡是傷心的事情。
我不知哪天會死去。
但如果可能的話，
在死去之前，
能讓我知道一下妳的消息。
我想知道，
妳在哪裡？
我想知道，
妳還活著嗎？
阿湘，
爸爸十幾年前已經去世，
大哥六年前去世，
連大姐，
前年也不在世上了。
妳二哥；
他住在泰國山邊荒地裡，
幫人家看田地，
過得不是很好，
但也不用擔心，
我在泰國的二兒子和大姑娘時常會去照顧他。
妳三哥，
講到也是讓我難過呀。
他大前年腦出血，
去醫院醫好了，
但醫好後，
很奇怪，
突然忘記了漢人話，
只會講泰國話。
後來不久，
他就偷偷上吊自殺了。
你說，
我們兄弟姐妹這是什麼樣的命運呢？
阿湘，
我們家沒剩下什麼人了，
妳三姐、妳四哥還在泰國。
還有我，
我還活著。
我還在緬甸，在腊戌。
除了妳，
我們一家人也就剩下這三個人了。
阿湘，
我們已經分別已四十三年，
妳也有六十多歲了吧？
我很想知道，
妳在哪裡？
妳還活著嗎？
如果有緣，
妳看到這信，
就回我一下吧。
妳的二姐胡明珠，
日日夜夜，
在等妳的消息。
二姐胡明珠 於緬甸腊戌
2020 年4月11日
姪Midi代筆
找人信箱：humingju1638@gmail.com
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#notice for a missing person
translated by Jane Lin
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Where are you, Hu Shine-Ho?
Ah-Shine,
This is your 2nd sister, Hu Ming-Ju. It has been a long time since we last saw each other. When you left Burma, my 2nd son was not even one-month-old. You asked why he was so fair-skinned? Had I put powder on his face? Now, he is 43 and I am almost 82.
Eighty something...I am indeed an old woman! People say that you lose your memory as you age. I am quite the opposite. The older I get, the better I remember! But, what I remember is nothing but sadness. Perhaps, our generation just doesn't have much happiness. Like you leaving home, we losing contact forever…. The thought of you puts me in such despair. Are you still alive? I imagine you living a good life?!! How many children? How are you?
Forty-three years ago, you were still a student at Chinese High School in Lashio. One day after school, I went to intercept you, "From now on, come to my home after school. Don't go to 1st sister's for dinner anymore." You said, "OK" and followed me home.
I still remember clearly that you had just sat down and I said, "The first sister asks that you come to me for dinner. She will take 3rd sister who's easy-going, not like you, a picky eater." I don't know what possessed me that day? Why I had to tell you what 1st sister had to say? Was I too naive? Too honest? Too stupid? I had absolutely no intension not to take care of you - we are sisters!!!! We have to care for each other, no matter how poor we are!!! The first sister's words just came out as a casual chat between sisters. Nothing more!
Life was tough for me at the time. Diseases took away two of my six children. But that didn't mean I would ignore my God-given responsibility as your elder sister. Without realizing the impact of my "casual chat", I went into the kitchen wondering what additional dish I could come up with for your first dinner with us. When I came out with the dishes, you were already gone! According to our landlady, Granny Hsu, you just got up and left as soon as I was out of sight. Only then did I realize my stupid mistake and how sensitive you were! Immediately, I ran after you, all the way to Big Pond Road where you and 3rd sister stayed. You were crying, asking 3rd sister for the money that 2nd brother sent. 3rd sister just kept quiet.
Indeed! The money that you demanded from 3rd sister was to cover living expenses for both of you. At that time, Mother had already passed away. The first brother went to Thailand, had already settled his own family in Pong Ngam. All the brothers followed suit. Father got caught in Kutkai by the immigration for not having an I.D. and had been in prison in Rangoon for 9 years. The Burmese government was just about to send him to Taiwan…. That day, while watching you cry, I understood how you felt. The third sister was getting ready to run away with her lover and both 1st sister and I were married young with our own families to deal with. As an 18-year-old with no mother, a father in prison, you must have felt all alone, sad and very scared.
I was filled with regrets watching you that day. But, please understand that I have always tried my best to take care of my family. When we escaped from Yunnan to Burma as refugees, I carried you on my back all day and all night without any complaints. When you went to Lashio for school, you wanted a pair of jeans so badly, remember? It was such a luxury that most people could not afford. Yet, I gathered all my might to get you a pair. You know I always have a soft spot for you, don't you? The day you were leaving Lashio for Thailand, do you know how many places I had to try to gather 300 Burmese kyats for you???
Ah-Shine, I know it was a huge struggle for you in Thailand. It's impossible that 1st sister-in-law would put you up. Second and 3rd brothers were in no position to help you….. I suppose you were pushed into marriage, just to end this desperate situation. Last I heard, you moved to Canada with your husband. From that point onward, in spite of all the efforts, I just couldn't find any trace of your whereabouts.
Our last contact stopped at Pong Ngam, Thailand. Or, was it MaeSai? I can't quite remember now. The news came to Lashio that you had run away from 1st brother's home. Later, you were temporarily staying with an older couple….
Before leaving for Canada, you sent, via Abbott Yang of the Yi Buddhist Hall, a package for us - each gift had a piece of dress fabric and a longyi, clearly labeled on a piece of white paper: "for 1st sister," "for 2nd sister," "for 3rd sister." I still have that longyi, with a peacock pattern, after all these years!
Ah-Shine, I feel deeply embarrassed to be your elder sister. Upon hearing the challenges that you had to face at the time, I could do nothing but worrying and feeling sad. I couldn't even afford the bus fare from Lashio to the Thai border. I barely managed to feed my own children!
Ah-Shine, What's the use of talking about these old memories? These sad memories of us old people have no importance but to serve to show you that I am indeed your 2nd sister.… that I have been looking for you all these years.
To live in my eighties is more than enough for me. It's not much fun to live this long - just a lifetime of sadness. I have no idea when I will die and I don't really care. I just wish that I could hear from/about you before I leave this world. I want to know where you are. I want to know if you are still alive.
Ah-Shine, Father passed away more than a decade ago. The first brother left us 6 years ago, so did the first sister 3 years ago. The second brother works as a field caretaker in a remote Thai mountainside. It's not a good life, but both my 2nd son and first daughter are also in Thailand; can visit and take care of him often. The saddest is our 3rd brother. He had a stroke 3 years ago. After recovery, he suddenly forgot his Chinese, could only speak in Thai. Not long after, he hanged himself! Please tell me what kind of fate has been bestowed on our siblings??? What is the meaning of life???
Ah-Shine, There aren't that many of us left, only 3rd sister and 4th brother in Thailand and me still in Burma. In Lashio.
Ah-Shine, We have been apart for 43 years. You should be in your 60s by now. I really would like to know if you are still alive and where you live. God willing, you will see this letter and reply!!! (humingju1638@gmail.com)
Waiting to hear from you, day and night!
Second sister, Hu Ming-Ju
Lashio, Myanmar
April 11. 2020
【最大的福份】GREATEST FORTUNE
(English writing below)
哇～～～線上視訊諮詢真好玩！😃
我剛結束為在紐西蘭客人批八字的線上視訊。這是我第一次做視訊諮詢。
我一向比較喜歡當面會面，所以海外客人可選擇來新加坡見我，或付費請我給過去。
但是中華玄學提倡的就是要隨機應變。無論現在生活如何的安穩，人要時時居安思危，懂得變通，更要隨時準備就緒，才能把握時機，甚至從危機中脫穎而出。
畢竟如《易經》所說，唯一不變的是變化。
世事無常，沒有永遠的好，也沒有永遠的壞。
止步不前的人永遠不會進步。
這位客人關注我的臉書已有幾年的時間。
當她請我為她批八字時，我一口答應接下這差事。
幾年前，我寫過一篇文章，提到風水命理師都要能夠及願意代客人的業，因此我們很多同行都是佛教徒。
這位女士當時就私訊我，想以我的名義捐款，為我祈福。她請我選一個我喜歡的慈善機構。
我拒絕了她的好意。因為我認為自己的人生選擇，應該自己去承擔。
現在也輪到我以我的所長來答謝她。
視訊裡，我看到她一部份的居家擺設，並道出那是漏財之相，會無緣無故花了很多錢，卻又不知道錢去了哪裡，財富無法增長。
客人點頭同意，說家裡確實有這樣的問題。
我指點她該如何化解這風水問題。
雖然這次不是看風水，但我不會忘記，誰曾經施恩於我的。
在二月份時，我寫信給我的根本上師聖尊蓮生活佛，求「救瘟疫度母」持咒灌頂。
幾個星期前，我收到回信。
回信中，結尾恭錄著師尊文集《神變的遊歷》裡的一段話：
“有很多修行人的「庫藏」，裡面是充滿智慧的法本，他們將智慧握在手中，「庫藏」內並不一定有什麼福份，他們只是將智慧發光，使一切眾生得到成就，而他們的福份就是「自在」。”
我家師兄讀了之後，緊張地拿著信來問我：「你是不是在信裡跟師尊求財，然後祂的意思是跟你說你命中沒有嗎？為什麼信會這樣子回覆你？」
真是好氣又好笑。
「沒有啊！我只求持咒灌頂，其他都沒有求。」
但你知道嗎？
這也正是我此生唯一的所求。沒有什麼比這更值得拼上我一生的青春了。
為明天四小時的視訊諮詢準備咯！
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Ooooh, consultations via video calls are FUN! 😃
I just concluded my very first video call for a Bazi analysis of a client in New Zealand.
I always prefer to meet in person, so either overseas clients come to Singapore to meet me or they pay for me to fly over.
But Chinese Metaphysics is always about being flexible and prepared for change, no matter how comfortable we may be in our current state. After all, as I-Ching states, the only constant is change.
Nothing lasts forever, be it good or bad.
Nobody progresses by staying put.
This client has been following my Facebook for several years.
When she approached me to analyse her Bazi, I agreed right away.
Years ago, I wrote a post on how Feng Shui practitioners must be able and willing to take over the negative karma of clients, hence many of us are Buddhist practitioners.
This lady PM me and offered to do a donation under my name, as she wished to send me some blessings. She asked me to choose a charity.
I kindly declined. Because I should take personal responsibility for my choices in life.
Now is my time to thank her with what I am competent at.
During the video call, I saw a part of her home. I told her that was a sign of leaking wealth. Money would be spent carelessly without knowing where it goes, and it gets harder to grow the family wealth.
The client nodded in agreement with my observation, and said this was indeed the current situation.
While this may not be a Feng Shui audit, I went ahead to tell her the way to resolve it.
Because I never forget who had shown kindness to me.
In February, I wrote a letter to my Grandmaster His Holiness Living Buddha Lian-Sheng to seek empowerment for the mantra of the Tara who saves from contagious diseases.
I received the reply a few weeks ago.
Interestingly, the letter ended with a short paragraph extracted from my Grandmaster’s book:
“In the treasury storage of many spiritual cultivators, lies many Dharma books of wisdom. They hold the wisdom in their hands.
There may not be much good fortune in their treasury storage. They just add shine of brilliance to the wisdom, so that all sentient beings can achieve accomplishments.
And their blessedness is freedom from worldly restraints.”
The husband read the letter and asked me panicking, “ Did you ask Grandmaster to grant you riches or something? He said you are not destined for wealth, is it? Why did the letter write that?”
“No! I never asked for anything, except the empowerment!”
But you know what?
This is all that I wish for till the end of my life. Nothing else will ever be worth my youth.
Onward to another 4-hour video call tomorrow!
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