唉～ 接下來幾個禮拜，只能像是籠中鳥兒看著天空🕊️😢
好啦！其實沒那麼慘🙈 雖然墨爾本進入最嚴重的災難狀態，實施宵禁，強制戴口罩等⚠️ 但民眾還是可以每天出去一個小時運動，只是不能離家圓周五公里遠🏃
不過我從沒想到一個家庭只能派一個人出去買菜對我來說是打擊多麼大的事🙀 接下來就是一個抱怨＋自我檢討的文字😬
首先，煮飯的人是 York，所以他必須買食材🌽 我則負責看當週有什麼特價、家裡用品缺什麼，再依照單位價格以及熱量等決定要買什麼😬 可以說逛超市是我旅遊世界各地的樂趣😝
事情發生於實行禁令下午，York下班後趕緊到附近的超市買菜🍆 買了一個禮拜份的簡單食材，買了他喜歡吃的橘子，卻沒買我愛吃的蘋果🍎🍊
問他為什麼？他說因為買太重了。結果我看了一下購物袋，他居然買了三公升的牛奶！！！重點是家裡只有他愛喝牛奶🥛
當下我氣炸了！覺得如果我不一起去購物，那麼他都不會想到我愛吃什麼東西？ 又或是可以把他一公升的牛奶放回去，買一公斤我的蘋果也好😠
直到今天看到我朋友在 IG 轉發的文章，突然讓我釋懷。英文大意大概是這樣⤵️
「我們從三月份開始就因為疫情關係在緊繃狀態。一開始封城的時候，大家都嘗試利用這獨處的時間進修、運動、讓自己變更好💪
可是連續五個月都在緊繃狀態，我們無法進行平常讓頭腦放鬆的活動。例如見朋友、去餐廳吃飯、踏青⛰️ 久而久之，原本的動力就會消耗而盡...😔 什麼事情都提不起勁、每天昏昏沉沉、脾氣開始變成暴躁、沮喪💔
這些都是正常的。畢竟我們生活模式因為疫情的關係改變了許多。在路上見到行人會下意識閃躲，下班後必須直接回家，那裡也都不能去🙅
每天能夠安全度過就已經很棒了。畢竟人們需要在滿足生理需求後，才可以追求額外的事物，例如創造力等🖌️ 所以不要對自己太自責，也不要覺得自己沒用、在浪費生命❤️ 記得這不是你的問題，而是疫情的關係。」
有時候一段文字真的可以拯救一個人的心態啊～ 難怪那麼多人愛讀心靈雞湯😹 希望這段話也可以送給那些因為疫情影響的朋友們❤️
說真的這波封城比第一波封城還要困難☹️ 主要是因為全世界基本上都重新開放了，看著大家遊玩的照片而我們只能卡在家裡（之前至少還可以爬山）確實令人沮喪😔 不過還是要好好珍惜自己所擁有的，不要讓負面情緒掌控🙏
Ps. 最近 York 又重新開始跑步，卻碰到第二波封城的關係他就不出去跑了🏃 因為直到前天，原來那些確診的人除了在家自我隔離，居然還可以出去運動😱
而且運動的時候不需要戴口罩，因為政府覺得這樣無法跑步及騎腳踏車等🚲 實在有夠扯！難怪墨爾本人數一直上升📈 所以現在也不太想要出去走路了... 🙁
Pss. 我的 IG 只剩幾個人就可以破七千了！雖然離一萬還是很遙遠😭 希望大家可以多多支持啊～ www.instagram.com/travelwithwinny 🙉
For the next few weeks, we will be like birds in a cage looking out into the sky 🕊️😢
Okay! Maybe not that bad but considering Melbourne is in a "state of disaster" and we are only allowed 5KM radius from home, it's quite similar to being caged up 🙉
I never thought not able to go food shopping together has so much impact on me😕 Under the new restriction, only one person per household can go out food shopping🌽
York has to be the person doing shopping cz he's the one cooking🍳 Yet I am the one who buys other household items and see what's on special etc😬
So for York going out to shop by himself, it will turn out like the day after the restriction was announced, where he quickly went food shopping after work in case everything gets sold out👀
He bought his favourite oranges and not my apples🍊🍎 I asked why? He said cz he's already bought too much. So I looked into the grocery bag and saw him bought 3 liters of milk!!!
If he only have bought 2 liters of milk and 1 kilo of my apple (cz that's the only fruit I LOVE) then I'd be ok🙄 But no!!! 3 liters of milk for the week when I don't even drink milk just makes me think he doesn't consider about me😠
Then I read this post by @thepsychologysisters, which made me felt better and decided to forgive😌 It pretty much summed up like this⤵️
"Just remember that we've been stuck in a fight or flight mode since March. It's ok if you haven't been as productive as you would have liked, learnt a new skill, exercised everyday etc💪
We're suffering a collective stress response, it's admirable if we're able to even just make it through the day.
Our work, home and social environment has changed, we've had to adopt to a new and unfamiliar way of living👀
We had to cancel events that normally give our brain a break and provoke a sense of fun, normality, social cohesion and relaxation.
When we're in constant fight or flight, we begin to burn out. Our brain is stuck in survival mode, meaning we're less able to regulate our emotions and think normally🙁 It makes sense we're exhausted, burnt out and lacking any motivation at the moment.
We've been hit with 5 months of adrenaline, norepinephrine and stress hormones which can have devastating impacts on our emotional regulation, psychological and physical wellbeing💔
So if you're feeling tired, constantly sad, frustrated for no reason, ruminating on what could have been for 2020, please know that you are not alone, this is completely normal emotional reaction to Covid-19💕"
So ya, because of this post, it made decided to try not to forget how lucky we are still have a home🏠 Try not to let negativity take over and still try to be grateful 🙏
Ps. It still sucks seeing everyone traveling around the globe cz their government thinks economy is more important than health...😅
