Thank you to,
@mandyleighhxo Makeup
@danieladamsphotography Photography
for allowing me to connect with myself through this shoot. To remind me to continuously create art 💕
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I started off last week with high energy and passion, wanted to start a weekly theme so I can share more of my creative ideas on this platform.
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But life seems to throw curveballs at me..and last week it hit me real HARD, again. For the last two years, I feel like I haven’t been able to truly pick myself back up. I keep getting knocked down..again and again. And it’s easy to lose hope in this process. To give in to the hurt and pain.
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It’s hard AF but I know deep down inside that I am not the same person that I am two years ago. Through it all, I found pieces of my strength that I never got to know.
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This is unfortunately not a fun TikTok post, but I don’t want to post another travel Insta photo just to share the good side. How can we navigate through life’s gifts of learning about ourselves if we only see perfection.
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I just think it’s so important for me to share the good and the tough. What I learnt this week, is that if I can put in an hour a day (or week) on working out, then I can put in an hour focusing on exercising my mental health. If I can spend two hours on Netflix, then I can spend two hours deepening my relationships (with my peers, family, partner).
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My BIGGEST lesson, I used to ask my myself;
“Why am I putting myself in these horrible situations?”
“Why do I allow people to treat me this way?”
“Why am I so insecure and am not as confident as her?”
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Now I see that these questions are mere reflections of what I’ve avoided to learn about myself..when they’re actually guiding me towards my strength. We’re so used to suppressing the ‘negative’, rather than allowing it to sit with us and to understand it.
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What I need to ask is,
“Which part of myself have I not accepted? Is this why I am hurt by that person?”
“Have I been neglecting myself? Is this why I have certain people in my life?”
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Now I see, that no matter how much you try to suppress the bad, it will always be there. But if we choose to work through it, we’ll already be living on the greener side of life.
